Well, its good to hear you're still around. I'm sorry that life's been such a bitch. If there was something i could do for you, I would.

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This is goodnight, and not goodbye.
~Tyler's Funeral

Perceval: Courageous knight, moral paragon, easily distracted by shiney things

Robots vs. Zombies. That would make a great spectator sport!

you are right about that... money does make happy, to a certain point when it is simply about having a roof over one's head as well as having enough to eat and also that little bit called leisure time since nowadays there seems to be nothing left which one doesn't have to pay for. of course none of us here on DA can actually help you (except maybe there was a generous millionaire anywhere?!).... i wish you:
strength to go on, even with multiple shifts and hope that it will turn out better one day and that all the fucked up work will pay off... also,
belief in yourself and your writing, maybe it could be a way out?! as well as a method to get your mind off the fact how fucked up and unfair life can be. you do have the talent for writing, at least that much is for sure... i wish you luck, too

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"Better to risk breaking your neck than never to look up at the sky"
- found in Tad Williams's 'Otherland'

Times are very shitty right now, for almost everyone. Don't let it drag you down though, it will get better and things will start to change.
Just hold fast and weather the storm as best as you can. My advice probably sounds lame...but I'm certain that things will get better.
Something will come of these hardships that you will appreciate later on...

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....I got it from a very reliable source, a hedgehog named Toad....
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"So, where will you be when the Mother Ship lands?"

Sorry, I was just going through kind of a quick spout of depression... things are still rough, but a lot better now... God, I miss everyone on here....

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"Paranoia is the mother of invention." Anita Blake 'The Executioner'

Happiness is like peeing your pants. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth

I'm pretty sure that somehting is that the hardships I face later will be more like 'easier'ships... lol...
No, you don't sound lame, your right, and things aren't really as bad as they seem, it's just that sometimes things get to you... and you have to work them out of your system... thanks

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"Paranoia is the mother of invention." Anita Blake 'The Executioner'

Happiness is like peeing your pants. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth

Thanks Thunder... you know, above almost anything... if I could have anything more than I have right now, I just wish I had the time to visit the friends I've made on here... I don't know if this sounds lame, but I don't have many friends. I'm a shy person, so it takes a while for me to feel comfotable. The simplest way I can put it is, people don't like to wait. For some reason it's just easier to comunicate online. There's time to think things out and change your mistakes it you make them. In real life I'm always 30 seconds too late. I always know the perfect thing to say after they've turned their backs and started to walk away....

Times are getting better. I feel so horrible when I think about it, but it's been more than a year since I wrote anything, since I've had the time. Life just gets so hectic when there's more than just yourself to think about... but that's an excuse... I've had time to write, but I've done other things instead... I haven't started writing yet, but I'm proof-reading again... and 'noting' that archaic art of chinese torture (if you could only see the shoeboxes I have you would know the horror of which I speak). I'm working on The Clearing again, Honing in a little on Mercy and Mallard... And Cam... The first part is going to be them, them and the master Brynn I think his name it... But mainly them... I wish sometimes that I could just deepfry my brain so it would stop burying itself deeper into a hole where the only way out is going to be to start looking for a shortcut to Chine. The more I think about it, the more I realize how interconnected everything is, how everything within the story, everyone, touches everything else, until there is no escape.....

I know I'm not a bad writer.... well, maybe not good either, but not horrible. I see things in my writing that surprise me, but at times a lot of things I want to erase... things I do erase as I work at my rewrites...

God, I miss all of you... I miss my friends...

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"Paranoia is the mother of invention." Anita Blake 'The Executioner'

Happiness is like peeing your pants. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth

Well, I'm glad you're back. I've missed you

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This is goodnight, and not goodbye.
~Tyler's Funeral

Perceval: Courageous knight, moral paragon, easily distracted by shiney things

Robots vs. Zombies. That would make a great spectator sport!

I've missed you too...

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"Paranoia is the mother of invention." Anita Blake 'The Executioner'

Happiness is like peeing your pants. Everyone can see it but only you can feel the warmth

even though i find myself to be a person who easily gets contact to other people i understand you very well. that thing about being 30 seconds too late, i think most of us had moments like that in their life, and in fact i had many, many of those moments when i was younger and had not yet went through that one pretty big change in my life that probably made me the person i am now. a person much more confident than i was before. a great part in that had the fact of doing something i love and knowing that i am good at it. not awesome maybe, definitely not the best, but good enough to also feel good about it. i think for you that thing can be writing, because i know that you are good. so, as soon as you have the strength and time to get back to writing, i will be more than happy to read something from you again! otherwise, i'm happy to see that you seem to be in a better mood now than you were when you wrote that journal ^^

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"Better to risk breaking your neck than never to look up at the sky"
- found in Tad Williams's 'Otherland'